for a long time, i have been very sad. i feel blue. eating, working and sleeping without any feeling or thinking, i have passed the sad days like that. i know everyone will die but i can't think i can suffer from the death of the one that i love the most. nowadays, i sometimes forget sth. maybe i can't pay attention to do sth. i know life is continuing, so i try and i will try. But sometimes, i feel very impotent. i think i'm strong but in reality i'm weak.
